Right; so this parts of love which will have rather personal stuff on it, so sorry if i depress people :).
Ever since i was 14 i started to fall into crowds with people which took me down the path of alcohol and lots of drugs - which i promised my family i would never do as i have a very religious family ( im not religious ).
I started to fall inlove with a girl name Kathleen ( Kitty for short )
we was really great friends and did everything together which made us so good as friends, until the day we had an arguement & stopped being friends, a few months later we started again as friends
which then turned into a drunken night where we had sex.
I used a condom and everything but i wasnt able to put it on so she did it for me, a few months after the sexual encounter we fell out BIG time and she walked out of my life. Later would i find out 6 months later she was pregnant with my child, which brought on many different emotions
but most of all i was always going to be there for her through the whole pregnancy.
A few weeks after she announced she was pregnant i was given the bad news that she lost the child which brought once again more emotions instead of happy ones i was slipping into deep depression and i later was made to go to councilling.
Then when i was 16 i came out as bisexual which shocked many of my beloved family and friends which has later caused complications in my life & now im forever struggling with the grief and upset.
I've experimented with both sex's ( boys & girls ) but ive never been into sex because in my perspective a relationship isn't always about sex, which has shocked many of the people i date.
Half way through 2010 i fell inlove with someone i thought was the best in my life, the first few months were everything i ever dreamt of & could wish for. Then a day after my 18th birthday ( wasn't the best year ) i was later to find out i was being accused of cheating which i swore down that i would NEVER commit as i find cheating disgusting but hey we all make mistakes.
I was then dumped after proving the best i could that i wasn't cheating which left me severely shattered and heart broken, i didn't know how i would recover from the pain i was feeling. After a few grueling months i finally got over the pain after having an emotional breakdown and falling into yet another encounter with drugs, which still to this day im fighting the battle against.
I sometimes get pressured into smoking weed ( cannabis ) i tend to smoke alot of this drug because i get such a high off it, - which disgusts me because i can do other things to get my highs, but nobodys perfect? but nowadays i tend to just go with the flow because i have friends that love me inside + out, which would make anybody happy, & im enjoying my life as it is right now.
I just wanted to give to give you all an insight on my experiences with love -
which haven't really been the best im afraid to admit, but i have
i dont want to make you feel like you wont ever be happy, or wont fall inlove with someone
but just keep your heads held high & live your life + love your family and friends.
If you do fall inlove with someone cherish every single moment + memory you have together
because you never know what you have until its gone. But thank you all.